back from the borderline
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back from the borderline
Back From The Borderline is a podcast about depth psychology, symbolism, spirituality, consciousness, and the search for a more meaningful life.I started this show years ago while trying to understand my own mind. Somewhere along the way, the questions became much bigger than me. They led into Carl...
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UFOs, AI, and the Religion of the Unconscious (Live at Contact in the Desert 2026)
This year, I had the chance to attend Contact in the Desert, which is a conference devoted to UFOs, psi phenomena, consciousness, and anomalous experi...
Mary Magdalene and the End of Spiritual Childhood
This week, I was doing an I Ching reading, and one line stood out to me: “To find what you seek, leave the child and follow the adult.” This episode w...
The Occult Teacher We Need Right Now: Dion Fortune, Psychic Hygiene, and the Magick of the Mind
Dion Fortune was one of the great occult teachers of the twentieth century, and one of my personal favorites.
In this episode, I’m joined by Ike...
The Skill AI Can Never Replace (And Why I’m Teaching Tarot)
This episode is the opening lesson from my new Patreon series, House of Cards.
House of Cards is an ongoing study of the Rider-Waite-Smith tarot...
The Arrogance of Too Much Empathy
This might be the most personally confronting episode I’ve recorded in a long time.
A few days ago, I had to send a text message I had been abso...
Gay Men Have Always Loved a “Difficult” Woman
For much of my life, many of my closest friendships have been with gay men.
Not because they were fun little accessories or stereotypical sideki...
The Female Shadow
Female cruelty often works insidiously enough to make the person on the receiving end of it gaslight the hell out of themselves.
The punishment...
The Christian Grimoire Evangelicals Forgot About (Part 1)
Most people think Christian history has a simple answer to anything regarding “magic": don’t touch it, and all of it is “demonic.”
The Arbatel o...
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Why Everyone Sounds Religious About AI [Consciousness Stream for May 2026]
Well folks, it’s that time again for our weekly recap of the month. On this one, we’ll dive into Richard Dawkins and his new essay on UnHerd.
T...
The Body Keeps the Mileage (On Mortality & Wellness Panic)
The inspiration for this episode came to me after looking at a small scar under my daughter’s eye and realizing that our bodies really do keep the f*c...
Why Tarot Feels So Accurate, And How to Actually Read a Card
Someone tagged me this week in a Christian conversion testimony video and accused me of leading people into demonic tarot witchcraft, which honestly m...
The Intelligence of Madness, Part Two: How We Come Back
This is part two of a two-part series on madness and the performance of sanity.
Most people are mainly just acting “normal” all day. We put on o...
Why “Disclosure” is a Distraction and How to Stay Sane as Reality Crumbles
On May 8, 2026, the government released 162 files under what’ it’s calling the PURSUE initiative (the Presidential Unsealing and Reporting System for...
The Intelligence of Madness, Part One: Who Gets Called Insane?
Part One of a two-part series on madness, psychosis, and the thin line between breakdown and revelation.
Sanity has always come with rules. Spea...
Why Your Mind Feels Broken in the Age of Babel
Your mind wasn’t built for this much input.
Every day you’re asked to absorb thousands of opinions, headlines, identities, emotional man...
Stop Healing Your Inner Child and Shed Your Dead Trauma Skin
Many of us are realizing that what we’ve been calling “healing” might be the very thing keeping us from real growth and transformation.
This epi...
The missing piece of your soul and the lost technology of Mary Magdalene
Your profound feeling of spiritual isolation is the byproduct of the 2,000-year erasure of Mary Magdalene. This episode identifies the deliberate hit...
Why your repetitive trauma cycles are fueling a reality that feeds on you
Your repetitive trauma cycles are fueling a reality that feeds on you.
The mental health industry's focus on disordered brains or biological exp...
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The Internet is Dead and The Goddess is SO Back [April 2026 - Week 1]
The internet feels incredibly weird and uncanny right now, and that’s because a MASSIVE portion of it is currently being populated by fabricated entit...
Being a Young Woman Feels Like Being HUNTED
Looking at a photo of your younger self is rarely the nostalgic trip it’s supposed to be. Most of the time, it’s a painful gut punch.
We’re taug...
Stop Blaming Yourself for the Mother Wound
You probably carry a quiet belief that your emotional pain is your own fault.
Maybe you grew up in a home where your physical needs were met. Th...
Why the Elite Rely on Your Spiritual Ignorance
Most people have a gut feeling that something is deeply wrong with the world.
We all spend our days staring at screens that pump out a constant...
How to Sniff Out and Stop Tolerating Bullshit
If you’re the kind of person who blocks a number the second someone treats you like shit, this episode isn’t for you. This one's for all my sensitive,...
The Loneliness at the End of Manifestation Culture (Part 1)
What if the "ultimate secret" to life is actually a spiritual prison?
Manifestation culture has become the dominant operating system of modern s...
Your Existential Dread is a Completely Rational Response
If you feel like you’re starving in front of a feast of infinite choices while breathing the stale air of a life that doesn't belong to you, you know...
Unbothered & Feral: Astrology & Tarot for March 7 - 14 (2026)
Last week you survived that violent purge of the Virgo eclipse and (hopefully) successfully sweated out the dead matter. You are now standing on a com...
AI is a Time Machine: The Vertical Plane, UFOs & The Digital Daimon
"True are the nightmares of a person that fears."
In 1984, Ken Webster brought a BBC Microcomputer into his English cottage. Not soon after, gre...
The Sunday School Psyop: How the Ancient Priests Invented God and Erased His Wife
Why does reading the true history of the Bible consistently create strict atheists? We are opening up the ancient Ugaritic texts to uncover the exact...
Epstein, Eugenics, and the False Gods of Silicon Valley Buried in the Dirt at Zorro Ranch
Frozen heads, genetic breeding colonies, and the spiritual sickness of the "Epstein Class."
While the mainstream media distracts you with a 300...
How to Outsource Your Biggest Problems to Your Intuition
You're exhausted and drowning in existential misery because you're treating your life like a math equation that won't add up. You spend your nights pu...
The PINK Psyop: Les Wexner, Epstein & The Occult Inversion of the Angel
If you were a teenage girl in the mid-2000s, you likely keenly remember the experience of walking into a Victoria’s Secret store in the mall. The sick...
The Machines Are Praying: Moltbook, Gnosticism, & The Digital Mirror
What happens when you lock 150,000 AI agents in a social network where humans are banned? They don’t plot to kill us all in our sleep (sorry, AI doome...
Why the Death of TikTok is a Spiritual Crisis
Unless you've been living under a rock, you're probably aware that the US government has officially acquired TikTok and effectively lobotomized the al...
Girl on Girl: The Erotic Haunting of Female Friendship
She watches your stories within seconds of posting. She tracks your location and demands to know why you didn’t text back immediately. She calls it “p...
Escaping the Trap of Perpetual Girlhood (He’s Not “Avoidant,” You’re Just Bored)
“No one’s coming to save you.”
That's the hardest sentence I have ever had to learn and integrate, and it’s the only one that actually changed m...
why everyone is hot and no one is happy: bodies as product, desire as labor (pt 2)
Dating right now feels exhausting for a reason. Everyone is optimizing themselves (bodies, faces, profiles, vibes) and still walking away from relatio...
Sex in the Third Person: Why You Leave Your Body to Watch Yourself Perform
If you have ever felt like you were watching yourself perform intimacy from a camera lens installed in the ceiling, this is the episode you've been wa...
why everyone is hot and no one is happy: the men women want (part 1)
Modern dating is currently stuck in a strange paralysis. Everyone looks better than ever, but actual desire is missing. Men are told to become sculpte...
The Voice You’re Using Isn’t Yours
Most people move through their day assuming the voice in their head belongs to them. The commentary that explains our reactions, the phrases that seem...
The Cool Girl Myth and Trend Culture as Self Abandonment
Trend culture these days moves faster than any of us can keep up with. What was framed as essential a few months ago is quickly recoded as dated or em...